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a disappointing perspective

3 Dec

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. – Romans 8:28

 

So, do I believe God is going to work all things out for good? Sure. But who’s good are we talking about here? Mine? Because if its MY definition of a good outcome, things are going to turn out a certain way, just how I want them to, when I want them to (ASAP), because that is what I think the best outcome would be. So I desire this outcome, I put my hope in this outcome, and what do I get? Disappointed.

Ouch.

But why am I surprised?  I know God’s plans are 2834720394 times better than my own.  I mean, lets be serious, He actually knows the future, has all the facts, and is ALL-knowing. Omniscient, if you will. He knows my needs, hopes, dreams, passions, and deepest desires of my heart.  He created me with those things.

So yeah, I should know better. But the truth is, I like to be in control of my own life. Shocking, I know. So as I keep trying in vain to get God to do what I want, I become more and more disheartened, disappointed, and discontent with, well, my life in general. Then I begin to feel broken and worthless, getting swallowed up by frustration and paralyzed by my own emotions.

Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life. – Proverbs 13:12

 

Hope deferred. Hope that is lost, unfulfilled, delayed, not realized. It hurts. It makes the heart ache.

How do you survive this state? Not with the snap of your fingers, the turn of a page, or good night’s sleep. It’s a process. A long process that involves a digging deeper into the Truth of who God IS. Maybe you have to change your perspective a little. Take Him out of the box you smooshed Him in and learn something new about who he REALLY is, not just who you think He is or want Him to be.

Moving beyond disappointment is a continual decision, a determination, and a perseverance of moving deeper into the foundational truths of hope in Jesus Christ. It is choosing to believe that nothing is impossible with God. It is to believe persistently that God is able to turn negative situations into positive outcomes. It is to believe and hope for God’s best to result in any given circumstance. It is to believe the truth of God’s Word over the disappointment encountered. It is a trust built upon hope in the promises of God Who is able to do exceedingly and abundantly above all that we could ask or hope! – Shirley Frey

 

God is an expert at making good out of bad. Transformation is kind of His specialty. So even when I make a mess out of things, He can and will be working behind the scenes with wise and loving motives to use my mess for His glory. His intentions are not to bring us harm or abandon us, but to love and care for us. He wants to give us the future we hope for (Jer 29:11).

When my hope is in Christ, it will never disappoint. God is a God of hope (Romans 15:13). When I take a step back and think about why I am disappointed, it is not because God failed to come through for me. It is because of people, circumstances, communication (or lack thereof), my own thoughts and my skewed beliefs and perspectives. When my hope is in these things, when I trust in these things, have expectations of these things, look forward to these things, desire and dream about these things, then I WILL BE let down. But when I hope, trust, expect, look forward to, desire, and dream about the things of the Lord, then I will begin to discover the truth of who He really is. And as I trust Him more and more for who He really is, I will be able to trust and abound in hope during the most challenging and difficult times.  

Its amazing what a change of perspective can do. Disappointment is really an opportunity to understand God more and to change our mindset about how He works.

Nuff said.

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fresh strength

3 Dec

Well its 1:49AM and Star Trek: The Next Generation is on mute in the background. In my defense, it was a total accident. I was watching Scrubs… hours ago… and then I put it on mute and now its Star Trek. I have no idea whats happening on it right now though. However, half-watching it on mute has brought me to the realization that this would be a great show to do hilarious voice-overs on. Yes.

Also, this couch has lost its comfyness and my left leg is falling asleep.

None of this is relevant.

I haven’t blogged in quite some time, and I still don’t have much to say really, so Im not sure where this is going.

I got some new music by a band named Glass Pear. Really really good. So far my favorite is a song called “My Ghost”. Youre welcome.

You know who else I like? Lady GaGa. That’s right. I said it. Sure, she’s twisted and controversial at times, but she is super talented, an awesome performer, and uber creative. A-mazing artist. And Im pretty sure she is only 23 years old. Makes you re-evaluate what all you have accomplished in life so far doesn’t it? Just me?

Its finals week. Well, technically next week is finals week, which just means I have a boatload of stuff to do by then. That’s probably why I feel the need to blog. Haha.

My birthday is coming up. I don’t know where this year has gone. They say the years fly by more quickly the older you get. I am starting to believe them. Oh them.

But seriously, this year has been ridiculous. So many things I went through that I never would have anticipated. I guess that’s the beauty and excitement of it all, the future, the unknown. Who knows what I will have experienced by this time next year. Its crazy.

But I am thankful. Thankful for all the pain and all the insight I have gained through it and because of it. Not that it was all painful of course, many great and wonderfully amazing times were had as well. But this was a hard year. Not just for me, but for most people I feel like. Sure the recession had a lot to do with it, but 2009 seemed to really take pleasure in kicking you while you were down, ya know? I sure hope 2010 isn’t such a bully.

Wow 2010. I can remember 10 years ago – the year 2000! I remember before the year 2000, thinking about how old I would be in the year 2000 and how crazy it would be in the 1900’s anymore. Holy crap I feel old.

Which is nonsense. I am NOT old.  But “young” hardly applies anymore it seems. Guess Im somewhere in between.

All this thinking of time passing by reminds me of all the things I wanted to do that I haven’t done yet. I recently had a nightmare that woke me up in the middle of the night. I can only remember 1 or 2 other times in my whole life that Ive had a dream like that. So, I decided to try to figure out what it meant. But how does one go about interpreting their own dreams, you ask? The internet, of course!

Now, I don’t buy into some random dream website for the end-all be-all in exact dream interpretation, but theres lots of research out there about common symbols in dreams and what they mean or something like that, so who knows. Just thought it would be interesting to try to figure it out.

Turns out that random dream website thinks I have issues with my job, future career, expectations, identity, loneliness, helplessness, frustration, and “unclear” issues.

Well, that sure was helpful. Good to know my subconscious has issues with practically every area of my life.

But really, who doesn’t struggle with these issues on a semi-regular basis? I mean, yes, certain areas of life will go good for a time, but then things get hard. Hardships come and go all the time. Such is life.

We all have dreams. We all have desires and goals and passions and things we want to do… and things we want to do before we get “old”. These things don’t always work out the way we hope, and certainly not as soon as we wish they would. In fact, they hardly ever do.

But do we give up hope?

Do we believe the lies?

I know for me, and I think I have mentioned this before, it is so easy to get caught up in my own life and self to the point where I don’t even realize the many lies I have bought into and started to believe.

Like, (and these are my honest struggles) there’s no way this dream that God has placed in my heart will ever really work. I don’t have the skills or the talent or the know-how. I am not capable. I don’t have anyone who will help me. I have no idea what Im doing here. I don’t belong here. I should just give up, do something easier, blend in with everyone else. Etc, etc, etc…

But those are LIES.

God will ALWAYS give you what you need to do what He wants you to do. – Derrick Scott

So use your passion, focus on your strengths, be willing to learn, and don’t waste anymore time.

Don’t get me wrong, life can and will be disappointing a lot of the time. Going after your dreams is hard freakin work. But everything worth anything is going to cost you something. At times you will fail, but failure is not defeat. It is opportunity and challenge.

Opportunities are usually disguised as hard work, so most people don’t recognize them. – Ann Landers

Failure is simply the opportunity to begin again, this time more intelligently. – Henry Ford

I think Im starting to sound like a broken record. Guess I need to keep reminding myself of these things.

It is easy to lose hope.

Why do you say, O Jacob, and complain, O Israel, “My way is hidden from the LORD; my cause is disregarded by my God”?

Do you not know? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom.

He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak.

Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall;

but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.

–      Isaiah 40:27-31

God cares. He has not forgotten about you. He is the Creator of EVERYTHING, including you, and He knows you inside and out. He never gets tired – He energizes those who are tired so they can run and not grow weary, soar like eagles, and not lag behind. The Message version refers to “hope” in these verses as “fresh strength” (I like that). He cares for His children like a shepherd cares for his flock, leading them into good pastures. Leading them into GOOD pastures. He has our best interest at heart. He will not abandon us. He wants to give us the future we hope for. He listens when we call out to Him.

Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us. – Romans 5:3-5

His timing is perfect. Trust is the issue. Don’t quit in hard times, it will be worth all the pain. Expect God to come through – He is faithful.