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Un-Pimp ze Attitude

10 Oct

Help! Im drowning in the sea of Strategic Finance!! Its true. I very much do not like this class. Very much. Buh. Its the worst. In fact, it may be my least favorite class ever (no offense to you smartie pants out there who actually like/understand financial hooplah – also, WHY?!?) To quote the Plain White T’s: “Hate is a strong word, but I really really really don’t like you.” So boo on you, Finance class! *spit on the ground*

That’s right. Im complaining about school again. Don’t act like youre not used to it by now. You know youve missed hearing about my awesome procrastination skills and how much I loathe studying. Yes. You have missed it. I can tell.

But I shall say no more of that dreaded “F” word (for now) because, quite honestly, it depresses me. And I do not want to be depressy anymore. And I do not want to bore you with such depressy things. Thanks, but no thanks, Debbie Downer.

Instead, I shall try to tell you of more interesting and exciting and happy things, such as my new boyfriend, or my new haircut, or my new love of those salt and vinegar chips that come in that purple bag (SO yum!)

But srsly. I apologize for my bloggy absence. Things have been crazy / hectic / busy blah blah excuses excuses. Life happens. You know how it is.

So, in order to silence the silence (yeah, that’s right) I have decided to blog. Right now.

However, those of you who are still reading this may have noticed by now that I do not, in fact, have anything of importance to blog about. Well, to that I say, you are quite right. How very observant. But lets focus on the important things here. And the important thing here is that I am even blogging at all. For you. Whoever you are. Yes, a new blog has come. So just embrace it.

All this talk of being busy and doing crappy schoolwork and being in depressy moods has got me thinking lots of thoughts about attitude. I mean, if you think about it, attitude is actually really powerful. Like, really really powerful. It can change everything! It practically controls your mood – which in turn controls your whole outlook on the things that happen to/around you (life). Your whole day could be either completely ruined or completely awesome based solely on your attitude… your viewpoint… your perception.

So yeah, attitude. Lately, mine has been sucking. And while I can easily justify all the reasons for it, Id rather not. Id rather just stop.

Is that possible?

(haha that reminds me of this commercial from a while back that my friends and I used to quote all the time… “its definitely sucking”) :

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xCIF6JF1O5U

and here’s 2 more bc I think they’re all awesome:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qgEvy60bZYI

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LuC6jeKjTdg&NR=1

Maybe instead of un-pimping your auto, you should un-pimp your attitude. Corny tie-in, I know, I know, but I just thought about it, and it works! I mean, come on, its the same thing! Replace your ridiculous, sucky attitude with an awesome one. V-Dub in the house… Oh Snap!

You are the only one who can change your own attitude. You can change your outlook on life, the way you see things, the position you take. Each morning is new. Each minute is new. A new chance to literally count your blessings, and start over with a fresh take on life. And you don’t have to wait to start over. It’s a choice you can make anytime, anywhere. A choice to gain a little perspective.

Sometimes we are limited more by attitude than by opportunities. – (Anonymous)

And that’s the heart of it. A sucky attitude is LIMITING! IT LIMITS YOU. It constrains you, holds you back from accomplishing all that you can. It skews your vision and causes you to see opportunities as hardships and obstacles to be avoided rather than a challenge that can be utilized to your advantage. We should be going for it! All in! Go big or go home. Don’t you want to live life to the fullest? To seize every moment and every opportunity to grow and become all you were meant to be? To live a life of joy and excitement rather than mundane and ordinary?

Confession: I so much want to be so much more than I currently am.

The greatest discovery of my generation is that human beings can alter their lives by altering their attitudes of mind.  – (William James)

Its crazy to think we have the power to alter the course of our lives. Yes? Im not saying attitude adjustment is easy, Im just saying its worth it.

The interesting thing about changing attitude and perspective is how different it can be from one minute to the next, once you introduce a little more information. I mean, you think one way about something, and then you learn a little more about it, and it totally changes the way you were just thinking, almost instantly sometimes.

I recently started working in an insurance office, and there is a huge picture of the sinking Titanic on the wall. Its all beautiful and tragic and whatnot. And at first, I thought “How horrible! People are coming in to pay bills and are upset about money and all their other financial troubles (especially in this economy), and they look up and see the sinking Titanic?! Doesn’t that just scream ‘all hope is lost!’?” But then, today, I heard the real purpose for the picture (yes, there actually was one). It is used as a sot of visual tool. Nobody thought the Titanic would sink. It was referred to as “the unsinkable ship” –that God himself could not sink! And yet it did. You never think bad things are going to happen to you, or know when they will – all you can do is be as prepared as possible. And then, there was an instant shift in my perspective. My attitude was no longer slightly offended and depressed, but future-thinking and hopeful. You can choose to see a sinking ship or you can choose to see a lesson to be learned. Lost hope or found hope. It’s all about perspective. And perspective is powerful because it directly influences attitude.

Its usually once you know the whole truth that you begin to really understand and are “set free” as the Bible says. Our attitudes can so easily be the outcomes of our jumping-to-conclusions and assumptions (and we all know what happens when you assume… “you make an ass out of u and me!”) So really, seeking the truth in all situations kind of overlaps this whole attitude idea, because if you seek the truth, seek to understand and get to the core of things, then it changes your view of those things.

And the truth is, that you and I are blessed. Incredibly, ridiculously, abundantly blessed. Blessed above and beyond what we deserve. Im serious. Just look at the world around you. There is an abundance of good and wonderful things in your own personal life. Yes, there is. And when you start to literally count those blessings, its hard to be all depressy. In fact, its hard not to be grateful and overwhelmed with the love that flows freely and constantly from God to His children.

I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me, and 90% how I react to it. And so it is with you … we are in charge of our Attitudes. – (Swindoll)

It’s a choice, every day. One that we have to make a conscious effort to make. Every. Day. Sometimes twice a day. Sometimes 10+ times a day. But I promise you, when you refocus on whats truly important, remember how very blessed you are, and allow your attitude to reflect the joy that Christ has given you, the Love that lives inside, you wont regret it. (I need to remind myself of this more often.)

You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self, which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires; to be made new in the attitude of your minds; and to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness. – (Ephesians 4:22-24)

Each day is a gift. And today is really all we have.

Time to un-pimp ze attitude. (hehe)

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El. Oh. Vee. E.

31 Jan

Love.

El. Oh. Vee. E.

What with Valentine’s Day coming up, everyone seems to be extra cynical about the whole love idea. Well, everyone who is single. Even the local radio is currently promoting the “Bitter Ball” for those not having “real” Valentine’s plans (which I do actually find pretty clever). Of course, you know its going to be mostly single people looking for hookups, but whatever.

And then there’s the common anti-Valentine’s way of talking about Feb 14th known as “Single’s Awareness Day.” I take issue with this because I don’t see Valentine’s Day as something only for couples. It’s a day about LOVE. And love can be shown to anyone, anywhere, anytime, in a billion different ways…. but that’s a soapbox for later on.

The thing is, at this stage in the love game (and by stage I mean age, and by age I mean 20-something singles), most of us have baggage the size of Texas filled with broken hearts and bittersweet memories (more bitter than sweet). Anyone who has ever loved or cared deeply about someone in a relationship that didn’t work out has come to some sad realizations about love not living up to fairytale expectations. And the result? Cynicism, bitterness, and self-pitty single awareness days.

After so many such experiences, its no wonder we begin to believe that love is a lie. But I came across this quote the other day:

“Love is not a lie. Love is the real deal. The problem is that love is human and its flawed, and despite all the songs and the poems, it does NOT heal all wounds.”

I like it, but I’m not sure if I completely agree with it though. I think OUR version of love is flawed, yes. I mean, God is love, right? And God is not flawed, right? And God does bring healing, right?

I guess I’m going to go ahead and assume that the love talked about in this quote is different than the kind God is. So maybe that is the bigger issue.

If I can learn to give the kind of love that God talks about, then maybe it WILL be a beautiful thing instead of an empty lie that leads to cynicism and bitterness. But I am still human, we all are, and we cannot show perfect love to everyone all the time, if ever. Humans are flawed. Humans break things. We break hearts, we break trust, we even break bones.

Forgiveness

Love

Hope

These are things I strive to show and yet, I do not really understand them. Frustrating. But I know I want to be a part of something bigger than myself, that I want my life to count and have purpose. That I don’t want to fade into the background. Real love is bigger than me. It changes things. So to me, its worth it to strive for that.

As TWLOHA promotes, “love is the movement” – and it IS. Because love is not a magical word full of fuzzy feelings that you can just throw around whenever you want. I mean, for some people it is. But REAL love is choice, its an action, its something you show and give and do. If love isn’t helping other people, isn’t benefiting anyone, then what’s the point? And is that even love?

So spending Valentine’s Day, a day that is supposed to be all about love, in a self-pitty “I’m all alone” party just doenst make sense to me.

For me, love has a lot to do with relationships – all kinds, not just romantic ones. The best way to show love is through genuine relationships with people. I think that is why I like the idea of authentic community so much. I am intrigued by the idea of being a part of a group of people that “do life together” as cliché as it sounds. People who look out for eachother and help eachother and share the truth of Christ and His love with one another in a real way – through actions and support and sound advice (the list goes on).

I want to be a part of a movement. A movement of love that continues to reach more and more people. A movement that introduces people into a growing relationship with Christ. A movement that makes a difference in the world and embraces the future He calls us to.

What would that look like? What would it look like if I deeply invested everything I am into this movement of sharing genuine love with others?

fresh strength

3 Dec

Well its 1:49AM and Star Trek: The Next Generation is on mute in the background. In my defense, it was a total accident. I was watching Scrubs… hours ago… and then I put it on mute and now its Star Trek. I have no idea whats happening on it right now though. However, half-watching it on mute has brought me to the realization that this would be a great show to do hilarious voice-overs on. Yes.

Also, this couch has lost its comfyness and my left leg is falling asleep.

None of this is relevant.

I haven’t blogged in quite some time, and I still don’t have much to say really, so Im not sure where this is going.

I got some new music by a band named Glass Pear. Really really good. So far my favorite is a song called “My Ghost”. Youre welcome.

You know who else I like? Lady GaGa. That’s right. I said it. Sure, she’s twisted and controversial at times, but she is super talented, an awesome performer, and uber creative. A-mazing artist. And Im pretty sure she is only 23 years old. Makes you re-evaluate what all you have accomplished in life so far doesn’t it? Just me?

Its finals week. Well, technically next week is finals week, which just means I have a boatload of stuff to do by then. That’s probably why I feel the need to blog. Haha.

My birthday is coming up. I don’t know where this year has gone. They say the years fly by more quickly the older you get. I am starting to believe them. Oh them.

But seriously, this year has been ridiculous. So many things I went through that I never would have anticipated. I guess that’s the beauty and excitement of it all, the future, the unknown. Who knows what I will have experienced by this time next year. Its crazy.

But I am thankful. Thankful for all the pain and all the insight I have gained through it and because of it. Not that it was all painful of course, many great and wonderfully amazing times were had as well. But this was a hard year. Not just for me, but for most people I feel like. Sure the recession had a lot to do with it, but 2009 seemed to really take pleasure in kicking you while you were down, ya know? I sure hope 2010 isn’t such a bully.

Wow 2010. I can remember 10 years ago – the year 2000! I remember before the year 2000, thinking about how old I would be in the year 2000 and how crazy it would be in the 1900’s anymore. Holy crap I feel old.

Which is nonsense. I am NOT old.  But “young” hardly applies anymore it seems. Guess Im somewhere in between.

All this thinking of time passing by reminds me of all the things I wanted to do that I haven’t done yet. I recently had a nightmare that woke me up in the middle of the night. I can only remember 1 or 2 other times in my whole life that Ive had a dream like that. So, I decided to try to figure out what it meant. But how does one go about interpreting their own dreams, you ask? The internet, of course!

Now, I don’t buy into some random dream website for the end-all be-all in exact dream interpretation, but theres lots of research out there about common symbols in dreams and what they mean or something like that, so who knows. Just thought it would be interesting to try to figure it out.

Turns out that random dream website thinks I have issues with my job, future career, expectations, identity, loneliness, helplessness, frustration, and “unclear” issues.

Well, that sure was helpful. Good to know my subconscious has issues with practically every area of my life.

But really, who doesn’t struggle with these issues on a semi-regular basis? I mean, yes, certain areas of life will go good for a time, but then things get hard. Hardships come and go all the time. Such is life.

We all have dreams. We all have desires and goals and passions and things we want to do… and things we want to do before we get “old”. These things don’t always work out the way we hope, and certainly not as soon as we wish they would. In fact, they hardly ever do.

But do we give up hope?

Do we believe the lies?

I know for me, and I think I have mentioned this before, it is so easy to get caught up in my own life and self to the point where I don’t even realize the many lies I have bought into and started to believe.

Like, (and these are my honest struggles) there’s no way this dream that God has placed in my heart will ever really work. I don’t have the skills or the talent or the know-how. I am not capable. I don’t have anyone who will help me. I have no idea what Im doing here. I don’t belong here. I should just give up, do something easier, blend in with everyone else. Etc, etc, etc…

But those are LIES.

God will ALWAYS give you what you need to do what He wants you to do. – Derrick Scott

So use your passion, focus on your strengths, be willing to learn, and don’t waste anymore time.

Don’t get me wrong, life can and will be disappointing a lot of the time. Going after your dreams is hard freakin work. But everything worth anything is going to cost you something. At times you will fail, but failure is not defeat. It is opportunity and challenge.

Opportunities are usually disguised as hard work, so most people don’t recognize them. – Ann Landers

Failure is simply the opportunity to begin again, this time more intelligently. – Henry Ford

I think Im starting to sound like a broken record. Guess I need to keep reminding myself of these things.

It is easy to lose hope.

Why do you say, O Jacob, and complain, O Israel, “My way is hidden from the LORD; my cause is disregarded by my God”?

Do you not know? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom.

He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak.

Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall;

but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.

–      Isaiah 40:27-31

God cares. He has not forgotten about you. He is the Creator of EVERYTHING, including you, and He knows you inside and out. He never gets tired – He energizes those who are tired so they can run and not grow weary, soar like eagles, and not lag behind. The Message version refers to “hope” in these verses as “fresh strength” (I like that). He cares for His children like a shepherd cares for his flock, leading them into good pastures. Leading them into GOOD pastures. He has our best interest at heart. He will not abandon us. He wants to give us the future we hope for. He listens when we call out to Him.

Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us. – Romans 5:3-5

His timing is perfect. Trust is the issue. Don’t quit in hard times, it will be worth all the pain. Expect God to come through – He is faithful.