live free

1 Dec

First of all:

RIP MaryMartha. 11/30/08.

I know you are with Jesus, at Home, in your new perfect body, and for that I am so thankful.



Its getting late.

Do you ever have days that you wish you could “do-over”? Lets start today over again. I want to handle things differently. Oh well. I guess you live and learn.

I think I underestimated the power of a simple apology. Even if you know they are sorry, it makes things 10x easier to forgive when I hear them say the words. You cant just wait on the apology though, not only may it never come, but forgiveness is really more for yourself than for the person who wronged you. You cant just go through life getting pissed off at every little thing other people do that offends you or hurts your feelings or wrongs you in some way – intentional or not. I mean you can, but I dont want to. Theres just a better way to live.

Love. Freedom. Peace.

Who wants to be constantly miserable and angry?? Yet people are. Lots of people. Maybe they dont want to be… maybe they just feel stuck. Im not okay with harboring resentment and anger and bitterness. It just weighs down on my soul. For real. I want to live in freedom and joy — in Christ. I want to reach my full potential, I want to be everything I was created to be, do everything I was designed to do. And I cant do that, I cant live my purpose, if Im letting those things control how I act/react – they will suck the life out of me.

Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom. And we, who with unveiled faces all reflect the Lord’s glory, are being transformed into his likeness with ever-increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit. (II Cor 3:17-18)

Is that wierd to talk about living up to who God created me to be? Is that even the right terminology to use? Like I have a life that Im “destined” to live… sounds so sci-fi. Haha. I dont know. I mean, the purpose of my life is to glorify Jesus Christ. Bottom line. I just want to live in a way that brings glory to Him.

I am far from perfect.

And I need to swallow my pride more often.


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